I am really not good at starting conversations, much less keeping a good one. I am not fond of the how-are-yous, weather talks and all the other simple conversations you usually can have with strangers. Sometimes I feel like I am too old and tired of all the getting-to-know-you meet ups. More often than not, I enjoy being just by myself. Be it strolling around malls, reading a book at my favorite cafe, or just staying at home thinking about life. Good thing is, the old people in my life know and understand this. I don’t feel the need to explain myself to them every time I decline their invites for parties. I don’t have to feel sorry for choosing to spend my afternoons alone than hang out with them. I suck at meeting new people for these reasons. And I don’t have a problem with that. I’d rather be alone or go out with the old people in my life from time to time than try to explain to other people why I am like this only for them to mock me for not being good at socializing with others.
But I am good at having deep conversations about love, and life in general… I can also do good if you just need someone to be quiet with. That I can proudly say about myself.
Am I the only one who has this personality? Because I once tried to explain it to a friend of a friend and she just told me I was being crazy. I stopped talking to her after that. 😪