If you will be given a chance to choose how you would lose someone, would you want it to be done abruptly, or slowly?
But if you really think about it, isn’t living your day to day life supposed to be your way of ‘slowly’ accepting that someday, sooner or later, you are going to lose all the people you love? That’s the finality of life whether we like it or not. Because everything is temporary. Even your existence is.
So as much as I can, I try to live my daily life thinking it can be my or anyone’s last day. Because I don’t want to regret not having the chance to say I love someone. Because I know that no matter how hard I try to ask or even pray for it every day, I won’t get another day with the people I already lost.
I just have to trust in His plans, right? I just have to have faith in Him and believe that He knows what He is doing. That everything will be okay.
But. 9th Mother’s Day without my own mom to greet. I still miss you everyday. Everyday it still hurts like it was just yesterday. And everyday I still pray for just one more day with you. 😥
Everything will be okay. Repeat until true. Maybe not today, but someday everything will make sense.